#10/-

Do you ever get sad about how you could have been with your crush but your crush is happy with another person instead of you?

It's the saddest thing ever. You try to act happy for him/her and you smile and hug your crush for the last time. You still have feelings for your crush but you just don't have the courage to tell him/her. When your standing there watching your crush smile and kiss someone else, you get more sad and all you can do is look down and feel a bit of regretfulness. You just think about how you could have asked your crush out but instead you are just the shy, nice guy/girl on the side. It's the worst feeling when you know that your crush may also like you, too, but, they are just waiting for you to ask them. You stand there looking like an idiot yet you hide your emotions behind a little smirk. Knowing that you wont be able to see your crush ever again may also get you to feel miserable inside. Your heart tells you to tell your crush "I still love you" but instead your brain and the unconcisous in your head interpose you to say "I'm happy for you." Doesn't it also hurt even more when your crush is your best friend ?

#09/-

You know I still like you right ? No, I bet you don't. You think I'm over you. Think again. I should've told you what you meant to me. But I don't have the chance now that we don't talk much anymore and not like we used to. I just wish you weren't with her. I just wish you weren't in a relationship. They always say, “The best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and best friends . It’s when you have more playful moments than serious moments . It’s when you can joke around , and have unexpected hugs . It’s when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile . It’s when you’ll stayed up all night just to settle your arguments and problems . It’s when you can completely act like yourself and they can still love you for who you are.” That what I want to have. A normal, simple relationship between you and me. And no one could ever seperate us. No one. But these things wont happen. I know. You already have someone special. More special than me. And she's beautiful, smart, popular. I'm just a sore loser. Who would fall in love with me ? I know you wont. It's been 1 year 6 months. I waited and waited for you to tell me your true feelings. But it never happen. I doubt that, all these while, you never had feelings for me. Yeah, you dont. I bet.

It was only just a dream.

Panic! At The Disco: Ready To Go [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

#08/-

I feel left out.

I feel empty.

I feel sad.

I'm not happy.

One by one.

All my friends are getting into relationships.

Because they have someone to love and care about them.

I, in the other hand, have no one.

I'm alone. I'm lonely.

No one to secure me.

I'm breaking down.

Fate will come and I will find the right guy ?

Dont think so.

Dont dream about it even.

#07/-

Sorry If I didnt update. Too lazy XP Hope you dont mind. Ok anyways, recently, I just finished my SYF Central Judging. And guess what ? WE GOT SILVER !!!!!!!!!!!! I burst into tears of joys :') Thanks Mr Ong, without you, we wont be able to get this far :) You're truly are a perfectionist. We're the first badge to get a Silver. Woohoo !

I LOVE BDSSB ♥♥ SILVER BABIES :)

#06/-

Sorry if I didnt update. Was busy with school. Had just came back from Sec 1 Camp yesterday. Currently sick now :( I'm exhausted. K anyway, took care of 1G and I LOVE THEM <3 Their camp was at SAFRA Yishun. It's like they're on a vacation or something -.-" The place was like some kind of a resort ! You guys are damn lucky... But too pampered at the same time. I hope you guys had fun like I did :D

During these 3D2N camp, I didnt even think about him AT ALL. Is this a sign that I dont like him anymore ? All I know is that I'm an Exco and I'm here at this camp to faciliate the Sec 1's and my main objective is to to make sure they have fun :D:D And guess what ? My group was in the Top 6 Best Group ^^

1G ROCKS MY LIFE 'YAW \m/

#05/-

So far, I never told you

So far, I never told anyone

So far, I never force you

So far, I never show you
So far, I never do anything to you

So far, you never knew

So far, you never know how

So far, you dont know anything

So far, you never had the second thought

So far, you dont think about it

#04/-

Valentine's day coming 'round the corner guys ! :) Honestly to me, Valentine's day is Rejection day. Just imagine. You like him/her and decided to confess to her on the day itself. Chances are you either get accepted into her heart or you could find a better luck next time/another girl. If you're in a relationship, you could show him/her how much you love him/her :) Simple as that. Maybe take him/her out ;) If you're single, maybe say "I Love You" to your friends ? Valentine is not just about saying the three words to a guy. It's not necessary. It could be a girl too y'know :D

HAPPY ADVANCE VALENTINE'S DAY !! ILY !! <3

#03/-

I got this urge of liking you back. But you're taken, so i cant. Whenever I saw you, you would stop and say "Hello". But this time, I lay my head down low. You wonder what happened to me. I told you its a personal thing & dont worry about me coz hopefully it'll be alright.

Hopefully.

#02/-

It just sucks to be left out. I gave up love ever since I gave up on Aabrahim. I feel left out and desperate beacuse no one so called loving me. I feel jealous when I see couples. I dreamt that one day I would be with that guy. I dont need love now. Love is my weakness. That's why Im letting go..

#01/-

Not like any other days, this one's the worst -.- Dont talk about it k. Did this MOE Survey after school. Suddenly no link, got Maths Test -__- K then then, went to TM with Afiqa, Iqbal, Naz & Firdaus. Saw Mr Leonard with his wife at Popular. Not only that, I saw my cousin, Abg Iwan, with his cute-innocent-silent type looking gf ._. Then yeah. I didnt know Mr Leonard not teaching at BDS anymore le. OMFG. How could I not know ?! Gosh ! Kk. I was left out though so I just kept quiet & nvr say anything. I feel soo extra around them. Tomorrow I has PE. 3 days to heal my leg cramps so, be prepared ! K bye :D